Moving forward is sometimes tough. It’s easy to fall back into old habits because they’re familiar and comfortable, even if it’s not the healthiest habits to continue. I used to run to alcohol when times got rough.
It was easier to drink and escape than to face reality. Drinking and keeping secrets started wearing me down, and I was taking my marriage along with me.
My spouse knew I was being secretive about my drinking, and it started to create resentments and anger.
I decided to check into a rehabilitation center to get sober because I wasn’t ready to give up on myself, my marriage, and my family.
Although I’m sober now, I can still fall back into old habits very quickly. One habit in particular is dwelling on the past and harboring resentments.
Sometimes when I have too much time on my hands, I begin to think about all the things one particular family member, I’ll call him Steve, has done to me. I feel myself become red, and start bubbling over with anger.
Before I got sober, I used to let these feelings dictate my life. I would remember something rude Steve said to me recently, a year ago, or maybe even more, and use this memory as fuel to start a war against him.
I used to drag my spouse into a fight, be rude to anyone related to Steve, and start ranting and raving to anyone who would listen about how I can’t stand Steve and his behavior.
I put my spouse in an impossible position, because he had to be the referee. It took a toll on my health as well as my personal relationships.
Although I no longer run to the bottle, I can still run back to my old ways of thinking, which is a dangerous path. If I continue with my old ways of thinking, I can easily slip into convincing myself that I deserve a drink.
Checking into a certified drug and alcohol rehabilitation center like Synergy Group Services Inc., is what saved me. Our Florida based treatment center teaches tools for recovery that will always stay with you though a lifetime. When you check into our facility, you learn ways of coping with negative people, feelings, and behaviors. Once you learn coping strategies, people like Steve won’t send you running for the bottle anymore.
When I thought of serenity, I thought of total peace, a world with no worries, and complete happiness.
Now I realize that serenity is being able to walk through challenges in life with grace and dignity. I don’t have to pick up a drink because the road is rough. I don’t have to apologize to anyone for my behavior. I don’t have to live in fear of my actions when I was drunk.
No one’s life is completely care-free. Everyone in life has to face hard times. It’s the way we face them that brings about serenity.
I know I won’t be happy all of the time, it’s not realistic. However, I have found inner strength and peace in hard times. To me, this is serenity.
When I decided to become sober, I had no serenity in my life. I was living in constant fear, keeping secrets, and always worried that someone would find out that I was drinking.
When I drank, I blacked out, and didn’t remember who I talked to, if I called someone, and what I said.
It took me a long time to find some peace in my life. For the first year of my sobriety, I was anxious and worried a lot. I went through the entire spectrum of emotions from sadness, anger, humiliation, self-hate, regret, and fear, to acceptance, forgiveness, and eventually love, and peace.
Many times I would talk about the past, and dwell on certain issues. My sponsor always said, “you wouldn’t walk into a store and ask for a calendar from 1996 would you? As far as I’m concerned, it’s all in the past.” These brilliant words of wisdom lead me out of some of my darkest moments in my early sobriety.
If I didn’t have a wise sponsor, I probably would have fallen into a pit of self-pity and eventually turn back to drinking. Now I can live my life free from alcohol, knowing that I can face any problem without a drink.
I have never experienced such profound serenity as I do now. If you are ready to walk through life without the crutch of substances, our Florida-based treatment center can help. We offer specialized programs tailored to fit each person’s individual needs.
According to the American Academy of Neurology (AAN), taking prescription pills can be extremely dangerous, and the risk of taking them outweighs the benefits.
Strong painkillers can cause death, addiction, and overdose. Using painkillers to treat headaches, chronic low back pain, and fibromyalgia may be more dangerous than beneficial, says the AAN.
Gary Franklin, a research professor in the Department of Environmental and Occupational Health Sciences in the University of Washington School of Public Health in Seattle said, “more than 100,000 people have died from prescription opioid use since policies changed in the late 1990s to allow much more liberal long-term use.”
Franklin continued, “There have been more deaths from prescription opioids in the most vulnerable young to middle-aged groups than from firearms and car accidents.” The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said rates of drug overdose deaths in the United States have tripled in the last 20 years.
The AAN recommends doctors work with a pain management specialist if a patient’s dosage is above 80 to 120 milligrams a day, and if his or her pain has not significantly improved.
Americans consume 80% of the worlds painkillers. Doctors in the United States prescribe more than 259 million prescriptions for painkillers every year.
Abusing painkillers can lead to addiction, depression, rapid decrease in blood pressure, and confusion or disorientation in familiar surroundings.
Some people believe that taking medically prescribed pills is much safer than illegal street drugs. This is not the case. Both painkillers as well as street drugs are dangerous. They both can cause addiction, legal and health consequences, and suffering.
Withdrawal from prescription drugs can include shortness of breath, vomiting, diarrhea, cardiac arrest, and seizures.
It’s possible for people to abuse painkillers as well as alcohol. When people combine painkillers with alcohol, the risk of overdose is very high, and extremely dangerous.
If you are suffering from addiction to pain medication, our Florida based treatment center can help you. We have helped many clients live a life of long-term sobriety. All of our staff members are extremely qualified and caring. We are all here to help you get better.
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When you first realize you have a problem with drugs or alcohol, admitting that to yourself is the first step. It’s a huge step, but simply acknowledging your problem will not solve it. Asking for help is what must happen next in order to heal.
Asking for help isn’t easy, you must have courage. Some have difficulty asking for help because they think it shows weakness. This is not true. It takes enormous strength to take action, and to take responsibility for the mistakes we have made.
Many of us were embarrassed to ask for help in the beginning of our journey into sobriety. The shame and guilt held us back from starting a new life. If you are feeling embarrassed, don’t be. There are millions of people struggling with the exact same problem as you.
When you enter a rehab, everyone is there to support you. You will meet others that relate to you and your story, and you won’t feel alone or judged.
Some people have a hard time asking for help because their pride is in their way. Put your pride aside, asking for help is the best way to feel genuinely proud of yourself. If you are struggling with substance abuse, chances are there are things you are not proud of doing. Putting your pride away will lead you to a feeling of genuine happiness, and a life you can be proud of.
Fear can also stand in your way of asking for help. When you enter a drug and alcohol rehabilitation center, you will see that there is nothing to be afraid of. The people at the facility will teach you new coping skills to deal with stress and fear in your life. You don’t have to be scared of emotions, you won’t have to numb your feelings. You will learn how to deal with tough situations without the crutch of substances.
It’s never too late to ask for help. If you are struggling with addiction, our Florida based treatment center can help you. We have a wonderful staff and programs that are tailored to fit your specific needs.